I sometimes find myself reflecting on things that I can’t control – things that might happen and/or are happening, as if I’m some sort of silent victim.
” I don’t want to be heavy again”, ” I don’t want to keep working in that environment, with those people”, “I don’t want this, I don’t want that…..that’s going to be a rough experience”. What I often forget, in those moments, is that I have a choice – I don’t have to let the outside environment and/or external influences control me – I’ll say it again, I HAVE A CHOICE! No, I can’t control everything and everyone. I wouldn’t want to. However, I am responsible for my response to the things I can’t control. As they often say, “It’s not what happens to you, it’s what happens in you, and through you, that makes the biggest difference”.
My mental “lapses” are few and far between. However, when they do appear, they can quickly grab me by the throat and smother my spirit. My guess is that those days come your way as well.
It might not work for you, but this is what I do. When those thoughts come my way, I recognize them, own them, and address them. If I’m able, I’ll take immediate action to eliminate them – I’ll go for a walk, listen to some music, scribble my thoughts (and fears) on a notepad, grab my guitar, read a book, anything that takes me, mentally, in a different direction – in those moments, I’m calming my mind and searching for the “truth” –
Here’s my truth: I’m still here. After all that’s happened in my life, I’ve survived – with a smile, peace of mind, and a quiet spirit – I am content with who I am and what I do and/or don’t have. I enjoy LIFE! Nothing – absolutely nothing – can beat me, unless I let it. I never do. I never will.
Don’t lose sight of the current moment and all that it offers – if you don’t like what you see, take action – NOW!
You’ve got this!